2025 见证分享 Testimony Sharing (3)

我在17岁那年生病了，总共进行了九次手术。第十次手术就是去年的截肢手术，当时我以为一切都结束了。可没想到，真正的噩梦在今年一月份才开始。我的病非常罕见，而且还转移到了肺部，这更是罕见。于是，我在不同科室的医生之间被“踢来踢去”，没有任何一位医生能给出明确的诊断。那时，看医生对我而言已经失去了意义。在那种情况下，我唯一能做的，就是转向神。那时候，虽然我认识神，但我其实不认识我自己。我拼命祷告，求主开路、求祂医治。那段时间，我每天都活在惧怕中：今天害怕面对明天，明天又害怕面对后天。
直到安牧师的到来，他说：“只要不承认那不该承认的，就不会经历那不该经历的。”这句话深深烙印在我心里。从那一刻起，我每天提醒自己：“我活着就是基督，我的身体是健康、毫无瑕疵的。”每天醒来的第一件事，就是对自己传道，对自己的身体说话；一有时间，我就对自己的身体来说话。那之后，我就不再活在惧怕里了。虽然之后的体检报告还是很糟糕，但我不看报告，我选择坚守神的真理，因为我知道我已经与祂合而为一，成为一个灵了；那个有病痛的旧我，已经与基督同钉在十字架上了。就在最近的体检报告中，我终于看到了亮光！报告显示有好转！所以我会继续坚持下去，持守神的真理，因为福音绝不会让我羞愧！阿们！

When I was 17, I became seriously ill and had nine surgeries. The tenth surgery was last year—an amputation. At that time, I thought it was all over. But unexpectedly, the real nightmare began this January. My illness is extremely rare, and it had spread to my lungs, making it even more uncommon. I was passed around between different specialists, and not a single doctor could give a clear diagnosis. Seeing a doctor had lost all meaning for me. In that situation, I could only turn to God. Although I knew God, I didn’t truly know myself. I prayed desperately, asking the Lord to make a way and to heal me. During that time, I lived every day in fear—today afraid of tomorrow, tomorrow afraid of the next day.
Then Pastor Anxin came and said, “As long as you refuse to acknowledge what shouldn’t be acknowledged, you won’t experience what shouldn’t be experienced.” That deeply impacted me. From that moment on, I reminded myself daily: “To live is Christ. My body is healthy and flawless.” Every morning, the first thing I did was minister to myself, speaking God’s truth over my body. I no longer lived in fear. Whenever I had time, I continued to declare God’s truth over myself. From that point, I no longer lived in fear. Even when my subsequent medical reports were discouraging, I chose not to focus on them. I held firmly to God’s truth, knowing I was one with Him—spiritually united. My old self, the one with sickness, had already been crucified with Christ. Recently, my medical reports finally showed a breakthrough! There was improvement! I will continue to stand firm and uphold God’s truth, because the gospel will never put me to shame! Amen!